My Goddess gave birth to your God

Well to start things off I went to a very awesome concert this evening. Got to see one of my favorite bands, Protest the Hero. But before I go any farther I just have to say this will be one of few if any more posts about Metal music. But all in all a very good night with my good buds. Got a chance to get some of that well kept aggression out.  







_________________________________________________________________________________Now to the meat and potatoes of whats up with the title of this.
The view of the female in todays society is shaky at best. But what is the view of females by an average white male early 20s. you would be surprised.
My life not marked by certain life changing events but however, certain women.  "Behind every great man is a great woman". Popular quote but i think its missing the plural. Since My freshman year in highschool, and that is basically what i consider my actual first year of experiencing the world in its more real sense, all the definable stages in my growth as a person can be time lined by very specific girls who all affected my life in only what I can think of as profound. The truth behind it all is the heartbreak.
Its always the same; Get a crush, fall in love, See the world newly, then get thrown back into reality with clouds in  your eyes and what seems like a false sense of self to put it all together.

And can I say its happening again.  Don't get me wrong, this is in no way negative. This is just living and I like to see where the road may lead.   ...Oh yes the girl, the girl, the girl. What could i possibly say to make you understand. You ever have those days where  you want something pretty bad and you get sorta a really teasing taste but its not really enough and by the end of the day your jaw is really sore from clenching because you're anxious. Yeah it was a day like that. I see the pieces but they just dont fit quite right. or one got soggy. All in all its good for the writing, and maybe a little soul. And perhaps the pieces don't fit because i havnt't found them all yet.
 Girl I Hardly Knew Ya
Girl I  hardy knew ya,
your smile went through me,
like flares in the night,
tender subject in tender voice,
I hardly knew ya


But could never say,
thoughts of you float off me in Autumn breeze,
some caught in trees disguised as Golden leaves,
inherent attraction,
with nothing but my fear and failing actions,
always just a friend in need,
but alright...
lets wait and see


mmmmmm a bit of late night poetry.
Im terribly, helplessly romantic and I've never seen it help me much. But like they say, lets wait and see.

It's a windy road

So first post. So far, so good.
What can i say really, Im 20. Its a terrible age. No longer a boy, hardly a man in anyones eyes. but it suits me and my current mind set. even though i usually feel like this age is wrong for me.
What else? I go to college, if you want to call it that. more like not go to class and just write poetry in early morning coffee shops over good tea.  Thats right I'm a writer. Or i fancy myself one. This blog should help us all find that out. Even though i despise school i have a taste for knowledge. The more i know the happier i will be. Or thats what i tell myself.

I most definitely enjoy my life thus far. Who can lose when its all out there to just take and experience.
It all hasn't been sugar and spice though. Times are tough out there for a new member of society. Its a cold hard bloody crawl to the top. Where ever your top may be. To sum it all up  though, a song.                

So this is me, And its gonna be weird. But it will be worth it.